Kerry at "No Ordinary Moments" ....a must read

Kerry over at No Ordinary Moments wrote this:  Being Still Long Enough To Hear The Messages

I left her a message that still feels like it has fallen short of my gratitude for her writing exactly what has been on my heart for quite some time.  No other words are necessary once you read her post.
Crystal

No appologies!

This is my blog and one of the reasons I have it is to journal my journey of obtaining MY best body.  Let's face it, LIFE happens to all of us.  We can sit behind this computer screen and act as if it doesn't affect our time in the gym or our diet, but none of us are SuPeR HUmAn.  So, No Apologies today!  Yes, I am dealing, dealing in my own way.  Right/Wrong, who knows.....who cares..... 
 
MeMe's do speak to me.  Silly, might be, but I hope by sharing my little speck of the universe someone else might get just what they need-whatever "that" is. 

So, yes, I am busting it in the gym with all my emotions.  I plan to CRUSH back and bi's this evening in a way that every man in the facility will have jaws dropped and slide out of my way when I walk by.  My diet, other than my craving for fruit chews (only on the weekend) is pretty darn good.  Yes, I am "working out" 7 days a week.  Gotta quiet my mind somehow.  What time I am not working out, I am spending the last few seconds of having my oldest daughter home before she leaves for college next month. 

(Yea, you get the picture now, LOTS of emotions)

 

Breakup

This time I had to make a decision about what is best for the long term.  Making this decision has been one of the hardest things I have had to do.  It's so different when the other person hasn't made you mad or hurt you.  I have worried about him.  I even tried to be a creeper just so I would know he was ok.  Overall, I know I am on the right path and that it will be better for him too.  All of that doesn't make it any easier.  In fact, I kinda feel like I am in limbo.  Waiting.....for what I don't know, but I feel like there should be this big epiphany.  Still not there yet...

So while I wait, these are some things that spoke to me this past week:

Life is what you make it.

Week Thoughts in Pics

I haven't done this in a while, but I wanted to share a little of my thoughts with you guys.  Maybe one of these is meant for you...

This is my 2nd favorite saying of all times...

"Don't let what you can't do keep you from doing what you can do"

Change is  ............

25 THinGs I KnOW AbOuT MysELf

Thanks to those of you who inspired this post with your very own. 

 It was nice to "learn" a bit more about you guys. 

I hope after you read this you feel the same.  I have struggled with wanting to write anything lately as it seems like one big battle with my health and even as I type that I want to correct myself and say, my "battle" is soooo petty and minor in the grand scheme of life. That is why I hate to talk about it or discuss it on here as there are those who truly have been dealt a bad hand in life and have actual day to day struggles that would make mine seem like a cake walk.  As with human nature though, our own struggles are the ones that eat up our time and therefore "seem" more real than anyone else's.  So I will not bore you to tears, just want to say I did have Facet Injections done 7/3/13 to my C4-5 & C5-6.  I feel so much better!!!  I have even taken naps during the day which is very unlike me.  Also, my Dr. who preformed the procedure appears to workout or has worked out to a degree that he understands the movements.  He has opened up shoulders and chest with LIMITATIONS for me.  After not working either for the last 3 months, I am LOVING being back in the groove with the ability to work every body part whether limited or not.  So while I am not hurting........I am so SORE from my newly worked body parts.  LOVIN IT!

Without further ado, here are 25 things you may not know about me:

1. I LOVE to read!  Started reading novels around age 11-12 and never stopped.  Favorite place to read is in the bathtub.
2. I do not like the "new" taste of peanut butter.  Has anyone else noticed the change?  Why you gotta go mess with my stuff?!>!>
3. I do not tan anymore, well until this week.  Harley is competing in the State show and I am not about looking like Casper next to Oompa Loompa.  BUT when I do tan, I tan very easily.
4. When I wake up I try to dissect my dreams.  I have gone onto websites that help you determine what a particular image in your dream may mean.  I do know there is a lot of underlying psychological issues I have never properly dealt with.
5. I am a Pyro.  LOVE to play with fire.  No, I should not have been a fireman, I don't want to put them out, I want to build them.
6. If I am addicted to any product, I would have to say it is eye drops.  Not that I use them daily, but I will get very upset if I can't find them or I am out.
7. I enjoy yard work, gardening, working outside.....I get a little too excited over new blooms on my flowers or vegetables.
8. My boss is about to build a new office and I have planned the location of  my office around the easiest access to the kitchen and bathroom.  How many of you have thought about that one?
9. There are times I may take 3 baths in a day.  I always shower in the morning, but generally soak in the evening.
10. I have a very sensitive gag reflex.  Sometimes just talking about graphic stuff can cause me to gag.
11. My babies are 15 and 17.  While there are many events with those ages that make me sad, I am happy my babies are no longer babies.
12. Music is a MUST in my life.  I have the weirdest sense that no matter what situation, my mind will automatically pick out a song to match.  Before I even realize what is going on, I am humming or singing a song that is perfect for what I am going through.
13. I wear glasses.  Supposed to only wear them when I read, but I think I should be wearing them all the time.  Sometimes we just know this stuff.
14. I have very few close female friends.  The saying that friendships take an investment of your time is so true.  With my situations with my daughters I never wanted to take any time away from them, so I haven't gotten around to developing those close friendships. 
15. I am a commercial insurance specialist.
16. MeMe's make my day.
17. I am still discovering myself at 37...
18. I am in love with the new Hannibal series and have a slight crush on Mads, something about blond "bad boys".
19. Even though I work at a computer all day, I feel computer illiterate.
20. I have been a beginner golfer for 6 years.  Can't seem to put in the time to develop it further, but I try any chance I can.
21. I am an Aries & parts of that that best describes me are;  lives life head first, always ready for action, inquisitive nature, passionate, loves physicality, and desires organization.
22. When I bake, I love to play the 90's station on my TV and dance around the kitchen.
23. Baking a desert for the 1st time for a special occasion is kinda my thing.  It's always a 50/50 crap shoot.
24. I am a selfish person in the gym.  Really do not like to workout with anyone else.  I will occasionally workout with someone, but prefer to be alone.
25. Hi, my name is Crystal.  I just discovered Pinterest & I AM ADDICTED!!  :)

I will leave you with my favorite life saying:

This one has gotten me through many situations.